The Chiro's Confetti Rice

Harriet Van Horne said, "Cooking is like love—it should be entered into with abandon, or not at all."

Like love, cooking can require patience, improvisation and a whole lotta prep work. Also like love, if you're doing it right, all the effort is worth it in the end. Feel free to quote me on that.

Last night I was craving Confetti Rice, a dish The Chiro took to making for me when I wasn't feeling well and was eating plain white rice day after day. He worried that I would get bored with my monochromatic meals and started adding different ingredients each time.

We never had a name for the dish until now.

Last night he chopped dark purple cabbage, ripe red bell pepper, and vibrant green italian parsely, minced two cloves of garlic and sauteed these in butter and olive oil with pine nuts and shredded carrots. All the while, the white and brown mix of basmati rices was bubbling.

He stirred the veggies as I snapped photos and suddenly asked me, "Can we call this Rainbow Rice?"
I laughed at the absurdity of the name, although in this variation it was entirely apt. "What happens though, when there isn't any cabbage or bell pepper?" I asked. "Wouldn't "Refrigerator rice be more fitting? You know, since we throw in whatever is in the fridge?"
He thought for a moment as he added the cooked rice, a pinch of saffron, a squeeze of lemon, a sprinkling of salt and pepper and a bunch of turmeric. He looked up at me. "Confetti Rice, then" he said. "In honor of your birthday."

So Confetti Rice it is.

Love and eating well

For me, the two are intertwined.

I just had the best frittata ever. Who knows, though. Maybe I'm just saying that because I am the one who made it?

The Chiro and I had set out early Sunday morning because we'd heard there was a farmer's market in the area. Since he works on Saturdays, we'd decided to hit the market on Sunday and see what looked appealing. When we arrived, laughing and holding hands, we realized that what was supposed to be a Sunday morning farmer's market, was now a new set of condominiums.

Whoops.

Luckily though, there was a New Seasons Market a block away, and we still wanted to buy some fresh vegetables. If any of you are lucky enough to have a New Seasons then you'll know what I mean when I talk about the allure of the produce section. I watched a woman hand-stack the kiwis for best presentation. A man who worked there was refilling in the baby bok choy where people had taken a few stalks, so that it looked inviting. (I'll admit, I was one of the people. Ginger tofu-vegetable stir fry anyone?) I just love that store! Plus, they carry really good frozen gluten free waffles (Van's brand).

Anyway, after wandering the aisles for an hour, we headed home to make some breakfast. While he put the groceries away and rinsed the firm, plump green grapes for us to snack on, I whisked 5 eggs with a handful of shredded carrots, a splash of milk, half a diced red bell pepper, one stalk of fresh spring onion and some minced garlic. I also added a splash of rice milk (The Chiro doesn't tolerate dairy really well) and a pinch of Vignalta herbed sea salt, my FAVORITE seasoning.

I melted some butter in a pan int eh oven and then poured this eggy mixture into the pan and baked it until it puffed up, then topped it with some crumbled feta cheese and baked it for 3 minutes more (so the cheese would soften). After plating it, we added a few forkfuls of Emerald valley salsa (grown locally in Eurene!) and gobbled the meal up before I had a chance to grab my camera and photograph the delectable meal. Really, I am sorry to deprive you all... it was beautiful sitting in the pan, but I had more use for it in my tummy!

I need a name

I've been thinking a lot about the poetry of our lives: That timeless ebb and flow of our days changing into nights and back into days. So often we get caught up in all the things we "have to do" and we forget to step back, relax, and smell the bread baking or the hyacinths in bloom.

I love to bake, but haven't done much of it lately. Part of that is because I'm afraid to try gluten free recipes (what if they fail miserably?), and part of that is that I have been so busy during my week that I just want to relax on the weekend and not "have to do" anything. Except maybe laundry.

Clean underpinnings are a good thing.

Someone once asked me what name I would have were my current one to flee, and I had a hard time choosing one. I think I finally settled on "ginger" thinking both of the spiky white fragrant flowers on those Hawaiian trees that I love to adorn my hair, and of the spicy seasoning that can play either naughty or nice (triple ginger chocolate cake versus a relatively sedate stir fry). I'm not so sure Ginger suits me anymore.

It's a funny thing about names, that our parents (usually) put in a lot of time and effort into choosing one imbued with meaning that they hope will fit us, and then by the time we are 8 or so, we've decided that we need a different name and so we pick alter egos and pseudonyms. Well, now I need a pseudonym for a top-secret assignment (I can't tell you any more about that or I'd have to kill you and I really don't want to kill you. I just washed this shirt). What I CAN tell you though, is that the name needs to reflect, not just who I AM, but who I'd like to be: Someone magnetic, passionate, vibrant, sassy, and maybe just a tad dangerous.

My mother recommended Veronica Franco to me. The main character in the movie "Dangerous Beauty," Veronica was a 16th century poetess... and courtesan. And as much as I like her ability to charm anyone she meets, I just can't reconcile being named after a hooker.

So the search continues...

We learn through our mis-steps

Blogging is a curious thing, isn't it? In a world that is increasingly reliant on technology (email, cell phones, computers, GPS sytems), it's easy to feel disconnected from one another. We spend less face to face time and more time playing with our various gadgets. But technology also can allow us to connect with people we might not otherwise encounter.
I remember when blogs first became popular: they served as more of an online personal diary and method of confession than anything else, and certainly there are blogs whose primary function is still to do that. But there are also the blogs that you find that make you feel understood, less alone, more normal.

Right after I discovered that I shouldn't eat gluten, I went through the grief stages of mourning my usual lunches and dinners. I became an avid ingredients reader, and tried some variations of recipes that turned out abysmally (DONT try to use an all purpose GF flour with your normal pizza dough recipe... needs some tweaking to come out edible!). In a search for gluten free dining, I stumbled across Gluten Free Girl's blog (and have included a link here). I was hooked after reading the first entry. She's got Celiac's Disease and her sweetie pie is a chef (!). She loves food and the way she writes about the joy, the passion that surrounds food reminds me of me. She also happens to be a very good writer and is a joy to read.

Her recipes have excited me (and I can't wait to try a few out this weekend), and reading about her exploits has reminded me that there are many, many people out there with food allergies, and there are many many recipe options.

I know that one of my biggest challenges to overcome is not in finding gluten free foods I can eat, but in experimenting with recipes. I tell my friends that no one is perfect (indeed, I told The Chiro that when we first started dating and he mentioned that he thought I was perfect for him), and yet I still don't want to make any mistakes. It seems that much worse when someone else witnesses my mistakes, but if I am afraid to play, then however will I learn?

This is a theme that comes up in my dancing as well. I have advanced through the ranks quite quickly, and yet still find flaws I want to iron out. I don't think we ever stop learning, but I have always tended to play it too cautiously.

Last week, I decided to experiment (with said GF flour and making pizza dough). I cooked some chicken breasts with herbed sea salt, summer savory, thyme, oregano and dill and then diced the breasts. I rolled out the pizza dough onto my stoneware and sprinkled olive oil over the crust. I chopped 3 fresh cloves of garlic and spread these over the crust as well and then spread shredded mozzarella and fresh baby spinach leaves of the top of this. I added the cubed chicken pieces, some sliced black olives and some crumbled feta and baked it forever.
The resulting pizza was... passable. The toppings were REALLY good (must remember what I did to the chicken!) The crust was dry, tasteless and slightly gritty from the garbonzo and fava beans in the flour mix. The most depressing thing about this whole experiment is that I spent $23 and 2 1/2 hours making this pizza, when I could have gone to papa murphys and gotten their herbed chicken Mediterranean pizza and just not eaten the dough (savings: $15 and 2 hours, includes drive time). Ah well, I know better now.

On her website, Shauna (the Gluten Free girl) mentions that Whole foods has an awesome gluten free pizza crust.
I shall have to try that next time I want to experiment.

There is a certain element to cooking that is like an elaborate dance. Like the form of tribal bellydance that I've been learning, much of cooking is improvisational. Oh sure, you have your rough guidelines (recipes, utensils, etc) but there is a certain grace to someone who is at ease in the kitchen, a flow to their movements.

As my 29th birthday approaches, I wish for myself the confidence to experiment, to takes risks, to play, and to learn. Afterall, as I keep reminding my friends, there is no failure: only feedback!

A Pasta-free Trip to Italy?

Well it's been ages since I've written anything and I have to apologize, my darlings. I hope you weren't terribly lonesome while I was off gallivanting and having fun?
Okay, I wasn't really: I was sick and stressed out and tired of feeling awful, but I figured out that I have a wheat intolerance and it was only a matter of eliminating it from my diet and VOILA! I feel much better. Of course, there was an adjustment period where all I ate was rice (and protein drinks). I was pretty cranky (not just because I wasn't getting enough nutrients, but also because I felt like the entire world of food I could have had just shrunk). I've always been a person who's derived such pleasure out of eating: sampling foods and sharing meals and laughing and socializing have all revolved around food for me. In addition, I love to cook and bake and that's one of the ways I show my love for the people around me. I can certainly still do all that, only now, I can't eat a majority of what I love preparing. On the upside: I'll be really healthy if I stick to my regimented diet (rice, protein, veggies, all fruits except blackberries, strawberries, melons, and oranges). Luckily, enough people are wheat intolerant that there are options in the stores for pasta made from rice flour.
Cooking mixes too, although nothing I've tasted thus far (with the exception of Van's WheatFree Waffles) are palatable.
If anyone knows of any kickass recipes for cinnamon rolls or cookies made with rice flour (or PIZZA DOUGH: I tried to make wheat-free pizza last night and... the toppings were really good. Yup. That's about all I'll say about that) please send them my way!

On a whole other note: I'm going to Italy! I can't wait, particularly since I started learning the language last year, with no trip in sight. People would ask me if I was going to go to Italy, and I'd reply "Of course I am. I just don't know when..." Well, the plane and hotels are all booked now and I couldn't be more ecstatic. We're flying into Milan on June 27th and staying the night there. In the morning we'll head to Cinque Terre for a nice relaxing 4 night stay in Vernazza. I'm particularly excited about this because we'll be able to relax on la spiaggia and swim in the Mediterranean and eat PESTO! Mmmm. Ligurian pesto (where the blend originated) is the best I've ever had. I still don't know if I'll be able to eat the pesto on the region's specialty pasta, trofie (it looks like little pale worms on the plate with mushed up grass from the bright green of the pesto). Mmm. There's a possibility that the wheat over there won't bother me because it's not genetically modified, but we shall see. If not, then I'll eat pesto on greenbeans, another specialty there!

While in CT, we'll take a day trip by train to Pisa (gotta see that crazy leaning tower!) and then head on to Florence. I am SO excited about this part. It's the birthplace of the Renaissance... which means art... I'm gonna go see The David's chiseled derrier! While in florence, we are also going to take a bike tour of the tuscan hills overlooking the city. Should be a blast! Then we head over to Venice, which I've heard people either LOVE or are totally indifferent to. There seems to be no middle ground (but I DO think it's interesting that the people who love the city tend to go with a romantic partner whereas the others have gone with a tour of strangers or a group of friends). Since I'll be there with my BF, I'm sure I'll love it. Plus...have you ever seen the movie Dangerous Beauty? Sigh.

After Venice, where we are going to take a cooking class and a daytrip to hike in the Dolomites, we head to Verona for 3 days to see the opera. Check this link out for the location of the Opera. Eccellente, no?

Then, a quick one night stay back in Milan before we fly out on July 14th. I am SO excited. If you know of anyplace I simply MUST go, please let me know. I'm always open to restaurant suggestions too!

It's been fun trying to practice my Italian as I email the owners of beds and breakfasts and make reservations... I have gotten really good at asking for a room for two with a shower and toilet...

Be My Valentine?

Yesterday was Valentine's day, a holiday I usually try to pretend doesn't exist. I adore those big romantic gestures, but I think they should come everyday and not just because an overly commercialized holiday tells you to go buy flowers and chocolate (though yes, I both bought and received the same). The thing about V day is that it can set people up to have high expectations and then feel disappointment when things don't play out the way you'd hoped.

Two years ago, V day fell just two weeks after a beau had ended a relationship with me. We'd talked about going to the Melting Pot to get fondue (my favorite restaurant) and then suddenly I found myself without plans and determined not to sit at home alone, bitter about the holiday. Why SHOULDN'T I still have fondue, just because I didn't have a date or a boyfriend? I called a bunch of my single girlfriends and planned a "Who needs cupid when there's chocolate?" fondue party... which ended up being a blast! Everyone brought a different dipper or two and I made first a cheese and then a chocolate fondue to be dipped into. I had fun buying party favors and candies, and made goodie bags, like what you used to get at birthday parties when you were in elementary school. We ended up with about 8 people there, and dressed up, put fun music on the radio, ate some yummy food and socialized. I had decorated my house with red and white christmas lights, a red table cloth with pink and white candles on it, and served red and white wine and pink punch. Seriously... it was so much fun, and my friends brought me little hostess gifts: a beautiful bouquet of pink tulips, sweet heartfelt cards, and a funny magnet for my fridge.

I think it's a shame that there's such commercialized emphasis placed on a day that was originally about uniting lovers in secret (as one legend goes). Why can't every day be about celebrating your love? And why are flowers three times more expensive on the days leading up to February 14th than they are the whole rest of the year? Here's my challenge to you: Pick three random dates between now and New Year's Eve. Mark on your calendar "Valentine's Day, Part 2" or 3 or 4 and then on that day, celebrate your love and affection with those in your inner circle. You need not tell them WHY you are sharing your love with them on, say, May 17. It will be enough that you are. Life is made richer by the love we put into it, and relationships blossom better than overpriced roses when you make an effort to express your gratitude. I charge you to add a little magic into your life and see what happens. And I want to hear what happens when you've done this.

Go forth in love and magic and the spirit of Valentine's day!

What I believe...

I believe that a piece of chocolate a day is good for you.

I believe that sunshine can make you happy.

I believe that fresh flowers brighten up a room, that snuggling raises endorphins, and that laughter truly is the best medicine.

I believe in dancing in the rain, jumping in puddles, and then taking a warm bath afterward.

I believe that a smile can alter someone's day, that a heartfelt thanks or heartfelt apology can protect a friendship, and that a hug can cure most minor ailments.

I believe in putting your best foot forward, acting with integrity, and treating others with the respect you wish to be afforded.

I believe that music can lift your mood, that the ocean is powerfully mighty, and that living honorably means living honestly.

I believe that good food can nourish your soul, as well as your body, and that a meal shared with friends can taste better than that same meal taken alone.

I believe you should let the people close to you know how you feel about them, and that you should do this often.

I believe that water is incredibly soothing, fire is mesmerizing and that success is determined more from the quality of your relationships than the quantity of your possessions.

I believe that home is your sanctuary, that high thread count can mean a better night's sleep, and that with great risk comes great reward.

I believe in leaving this world a better place than you found it, and that small changes can make a large difference.

But mostly, I believe in love.

Blessings

I wish you as much love and joy as your heart can handle, and then some. I wish you as much financial abundance as your bank account can handle, and then some. I wish you as many friends as you can handle, and then some. I wish an openness to life's miracles upon each of you. Maybe you be blessed beyond your wildest dreams, and then some.

Love, joy, laughter and light

I might...

I used to write poems quite often and then sometime around May, I was unable to write. This one came into my head the other night when I was SUPPOSED to be sleeping so I wrote it down to get it out of my head so that I COULD sleep. And now I'm sharing it with you.

I might

I might drive too fast. I might sing off key. I might eat too much sugar and stay up too late and dance around my living room to music that's turned up too loud. I might choose a yoga class to recenter myself over drinks with friends. I might love working out more for how alive it makes me feel than to fit into a certain dress size. I might be a really good cook but eat cereal for dinner. I might use coffee grounds to fertilize my roses. I might love frolicking in the ocean waves, even when the water is only 50 degrees. I might grow rosemary really well but have a black thumb when it comes to basil. But I might buy basil plants anyway. I might dance with joy every day for two weeks and then need a day to myself to rejuvenate. I might buy flowers for random people, just to thank them for doing a thankless job. I might spend too much on high heel shoes and organic farmer's market produce. I might wrote poems for a birthday, or no reason at all. I might horde the crossword puzzle on Sundays and jump in mud puddles and drink hot cocoa with 11 mini marshmallows in it. I might twirl around until I collapse with joy and dizziness, and I might cry at happy movies.

I might love too deeply and live too honestly and give too much to my favorite people.

But I am blissfully happy.

The Essence of Om

That I am a go-getter would surprise no one. I am learning to speak Italian, play the guitar, and bellydance. I am taking some cooking classes at Sur La Table this month (and I'm very excited about all of it). Everyone tends to make New Year's resolutions about things they think they should avoid, or other things they think they should do, but I find resolutions to be highly ineffective. Instead of actually propelling you to DO these things, it creates resistance and a feeling of obligation. If you really wanted to do what's on your list, you would just go out there and DO them and not wait for "someday."
What about TOday? Why wait for someday? And if the idea of doing it doesn't excite you and fill you with passion, why not cross it off your to-do list.

I told a friend of mine that i was taking these cooking classes and he said, "Neat. Someday, when I get a bigger kitchen, I want to learn to cook." I told him that he doesn't have to put it off and that the kitchen was just an excuse. If it were really important to him, he could do it NOW, and if it's not important to him, then that's okay, but to at least be honest with himself.

And in that spirit, I've been thinking about buying or starting up my own little spiritual/metaphysical store/healing center and I finally chose a name I think I really like, AND I registered it on the web (I now am the proud owner of 2 website domain names!) Now to figure out how to set up a website, and to get a logo, and write the business plan (which I've started) and get the investors/loans and find a location and start buying inventory...

Yes. I have a long road ahead of me, but it's something I am passionate about and am excited to be doing.

I'm sorry for the rambly, jumbly message, but I just wanted to put this all out there so you all could put some good mojo into the world for me. Thank you!

Love and Light!

The Big Lessons I learned in 2006

Some of these are things I already knew (and you’ve heard me talk about) but I needed illustrated for me, and some are things that I only fully realized this year. Do with this what you will, but I figured you might be able to benefit from my experiences.

1) There are only two basic emotions and everything goes back to these two. They are fear and love. Both are very powerful and whichever one you focus on will bring you more of the same. This is obvious to anyone who knows about the Universal Law of Attraction that states that whatever you put your energy into will come back to you (usually three-fold). For example, a man who worries that his marriage is suffering and his wife is cheating on him with a mutual friend will eventually CAUSE his marriage to suffer (and may or may not incite his previously-faithful wife to have an affair). In the example I am thinking of, that’s EXACTLY what happened: The wife got tired of being punished for something she hadn’t done, there were obvious problems in the marriage, and so she decided to have that affair. Obviously, I am oversimplifying things here, but the point is that life is a self-fulfilling prophecy. Someone wise (I think it may have been Henry Ford) once said “Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re right.” Focusing on the fear both corroborates events and circumstances that will justify that fear, and it will bring MORE fear-based events and circumstances into your life. However, focusing on the love will bring more loving people and situations into your life.
As Buddha said, “We are that we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.” Let’s make a world full of love!

I have been incredibly blessed to have such wonderful, loving people in my life. I have the best friends in the world. I choose to consistently focus on the love, and it IS a choice: One made daily. It’s not effortless, but like anything, it does get easier with practice.

2) There are no ordinary moments. Live in the now! There is something magical happening in every moment, even if you don’t know immediately what that noteworthy thing is. It’s all fine and dandy to plan for the future (and as someone who is SO goal oriented, I would still say it’s a necessary thing), but this moment is all you really have. And this one. And this one. There are no real promises, and no real guarantees. The only thing you really have, besides your memories (which don’t reflect you you are now, but who you were in the past), is this moment. It’s up to you to make the most of it.

Rushing through life simply causes us to miss the important moments along the way. You’ve probably often heard “It’s the journey that counts: not the destination.” Life is not a destination: it’s a path, and one that frequently meanders and loops around. There are no shortcuts. This has been a tough lesson for me because I am so goal-oriented, and I constantly find myself trying to center myself in the moment instead of planning ahead, but I find that I get more out of life when I DO stop to smell the flowers, and watch the sun set and see the lights twinkling over the city. Life feels richer and fuller when you take the time to enjoy the presents (in the present).

3) There is no such thing as failure (except maybe deciding not to try). If events don’t unfold according to the vision you had planned, it doesn’t mean that you failed: it simply means that circumstances took on a life of their own. It gives you feedback about how to NOT do things next time.

When you create a vision of how you want things to unfold, when you are so attached to a specific outcome, if things don’t go exactly as planned, you just end up disappointed. It’s much better to manifest certain aspects or experiences to your life, while remaining open to HOW those things will be fulfilled. It is much better to say “I want a job with XYZ characteristics that makes me feel LMNOP,” rather than saying I want THIS title at THIS company. You may end up with the title and the company, but still not happy because you are missing aspects of the workplace that you really do need to be happy.

Challenges are opportunities for learning and growth. As Marianne Williamson said, “We will be given every opportunity to learn through joy, and when we deny ourselves that, we will learn through pain. But we will learn.” What you may think of as failure is simply a chance to learn (albeit through pain). But since learning through joy feels so much better, why not focus on that instead?

4) It doesn’t matter what other people say: It only matters what you know to be your own personal truth. I’ve gone through a lot this year that other people cringed to see me have to experience. They care about me and saw me in a situation where I wasn’t happy, but wasn’t willing to do anything to change it, and it frustrated them. I couldn’t handle the constant judgments so I pulled back from a lot of my friends, and only when I HAD changed my situation could I resume contact with them. A lot of them took it personally, and it really had more to do with me and how I was feeling rather than anything about them. I know now how to let people know that it is fine for them to have their opinions but that my life is MY process and I will go through it at my own pace. They can’t rush me, and they can’t protect me from the experiences I need to grow as a person (and there have been many this year, but I have also grown a great deal). Don’t let anyone rush you through your processes (and yes, life IS a process).

I have tried to be less judgmental since this experience. Friends use to come to me for advice and now I try to give less advice and talk someone through what they feel is right for them. I’ve become a better listener as a result, which in turn makes me a better friend.

And finally:
5) Total love, understanding and acceptance can only come from within. Look to yourself to fulfill these needs. If you are constantly looking to other people to tell you that you are worthy (and you ARE!), then you will be on an emotional see saw. Some days (when people are lavishing love and compliments upon you) you’ll feel great, but the days where the people in your life are having a rough day, or less expressive about how wonderful you are, you will feel drained and less confident. It’s always best to retain control of your life and your emotional well-being. Don’t hand that control over to someone else. Only YOU can make you happy, and you can do that all by yourself. You don’t need anyone else present to do that for you (and indeed, if you can’t make yourself happy, no one else can truly please you). Come be happy with me! Like approaching life with an attitude of love, it is a decision you make each day. Make that choice, and let’s dance off into the twilight, happy and full of love.

Many blessings for the new year, my friends. Happy holidays! I love you all! <3

The Little Black Dress

In a season when most people are struggling to stave off (or lose) holiday body weight, I am concentrating on losing dead emotional weight. I'm lightening the luggage if you will. I don't need the self-doubt or the fear, so I'll just remove those from my suitcase. I'll also take out limiting beliefs, hurt and anger. Oh how much lighter my bags feel! I had forgotten.

Life is like a grand vacation, destination unknown. It's so much easier to change courses quickly when all you carry is love, light, and joy. They take up hardly any room and I never run out. The biggest challenge is leaving the darker emotions behind me at each stop. Those are souveniers I definitely don't need, nor do I want.

It was too emotionally taxing to carry that old crap around. I'm cleaning out the garage and tossing everything that no longer serves me. That's not to say that I will forever remain perfectly serene (as one friend recently told me I seem), but simply that I will choose to only keep what makes me feel good. I know that this will be a continual process, but I also know that, like anything else, focusing on the positive gets easier with time. I am powerful beyond measure!

No sane woman hangs on to clothing in which they look and feel like crap (especially when they have other clothing options). I am simply tossing the old rags and keeping only that which makes me feel shiny, happy, JOYFUL. Why wear rags when you can wear something that conforms to your body and showcases your best assets?

We have the power to shape our realities. We can make anything we want happen if we really believe. By concentrating on lugging anger and betrayal and pain and fear with us from journey to journey, we lose sight of the happiness and the love. It's like neglecting the little black dress in your closet that makes you look and feel like a million bucks in favor of wearing something scratchy and painful, like a burlap sack. Don't we all deserve to feel like a million dollars? I have a secret: We don't need an LBD to do so. We can simply CHOOSE to be that way. And sure, it takes practice. We might look down after donning the little black dress of love and gratitude and realize that we are once again cloaked in the burlap sack of negativity, but we can continue to choose to put the LBD on and throw out the burlap sack.

I invite you to make this choice with me. Let's choose to feel good. Let's choose to love. Let's choose to be happy. And they are choices; ones which you will have to make daily, but you are capable of making that choice.

As Buddha said, "We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world."

Let's make a loving, joyful world full of light.

I love you all!

The Holiday Party Season Commences

There is something about snowfall that brings out the kid in me. I love how the sky turns a violety color at night, with the clouds reflecting back the city lights. I love the peace and quiet that the blanket of white brings with it. It's almost as if time iteslf slows down to accomodate for the icy roads and chilly air. I love it!

I hope the snow sticks, although I know that 36 degrees is far too warm for that to happen. Maybe the temperature will drop drastically tonight and we'll continue to see the little flakes floating gently down. I don't know why it excites me so, but that it does. Mmmm!

This weekend I celebrated not only Thanksgiving but Christmas as well (at least, the first of many. I fully subscribe to the Twelve Days of Christmas feeling!) On Thursday we went to Jake's for dinner and I was able to successfully avoid the traditional meal of which I am not so fond. Bring on the french onion soup and caesar salad! On Friday, Cheryl and I decided to do the thing, you know, where you get up at 5 am and hit the stores for good deals. I bought a ton of Christmas presents (I only need 3 more). We refueled with high-fat fried food at Red Robin and then saw Happy Feet (which was adorable) and did some MORE shopping. Around 9 pm, I headed home to make all the pies for the next day's family Christmas, which we celebrated a month early this year since my cousin is shipping out with the Navy next week. I feel like I need another 4 day weekend to recover from this one.

This season both energizes and calms me. I love the twinkling lights glittering through the snow (when there IS snow). I love the smell of pine trees and apple cider and gingerbread cookies. I love baking and entertaining friends and dressing up, but in the cold weather, I am also more likely to want to go to sleep early and drink hot cocoa at home instead of traipsing around to party after party.

I've been listening to Christmas music non stop since Thursday. Do you think I'll tire of it before the day actually GETS here?

I've Got (Gum)Balls

I've figured out (some of) what makes Heroes so captivating: Although it is a television drama, the themes running through the show are so relatable to "normal" life. I think that's ultimately what makes great fiction. You have to stretch the truth and the powers of believability, but still have ideas and issues that the audience connects to. Mind reading, radioactivity, the ability to fly...these push our ability to suspend disbelief, but the desire to do good for the world, the quest for truth and knowledge, love and loss are all themes to which we can all relate.

Part of my obsession with Heroes also stems from the fact that, I'm sorry to say, I've been disappointed in Lost lately.

On a whole other note, people have been telling me for 15 years now that I should write an advice column, and I've finally heeded their urgings. Here's a little tidbit to the guy who asked me why women love shopping and makeup so much:

Part of it is the gatherer instinct that came to us from cave person days (which you men were off slaying beasts for dinner, we gathered the prettiest berries and plumpest nuts that we could find). Part of it is a desire to reinvent ourselves from day to day, and different clothing styles and changing our hair or makeup helps us to do so. One day, I can rock the biker look with black leather pants and a clingy black t-shirt, smoky black makeup and a Greek Fisherman's cap, and then next day I can look demure in white knee socks, a gray pleated skirt and a white button down shirt. I get to play up different facets of my personality, depending on how I feel. Guys tend to be so much more boring. "Ooh...Time to get dressed for work. I'll put on pants, a shirt and a tie: striped today though, so I'm REALLY changing it up!"

Here's the secret that you can use to turn her shopping habit to your advantage: Let her run with it. Encourage it even. Not only will she think she's got the most undertanding man ever, but she'll bring out the different facets of her personality, and you'll get to experience the thrill of dating 12 different women while still staying true.

Questions about Heroes

Okay, I don't want this blog to devolve into a reacap of my favorite tv show, but there's something about the themes running through Heroes that just makes me think.

Last night's episode dealt more with the Heroes' emerging talents and special skills. From what I can tell so far, for each person, these weren't skills that they were born with, but something that appeared without warning or reason. The radioactive man lost two days of consciousness and then had all these talents, as well as two parallel cuts on his neck. The cop who can read minds was able to do so BEFORE he lost his two days, but he too has parallel cuts on his neck.

The question then becomes: Are these Heroes being injected with something to make their DNA mutate, thereby causing skills and talents to emerge? Or are these skills simply something that lay dormant inside them until "the world needs them?"

And is the cheerleader's dad good or evil? Does he really in fact love his indestructible Claire? He seems to genuinely care about her...but he also takes the Heroes and "studies" them. Who knows what that really means.

And was Claire born with these talents, or did they emerge only recently? Is Syler the one who's giving these people special skills, or is he simply killing them? And WHY is he killing them (if it is indeed him that is doing the killing. All we know is that the murderer wears a wrist watch and stays in the shadows so we never fully see his face. I used to think that Claire's dad was Syler, but I don't think so now.

And back to the whole talent thing. Mohinder's mother told him that he had had a sister who died when he was just 2 years old, and that his sister had been special, although she didn't elaborate on what she meant by special. Does that mean that she doesn't think that Mohinder is special? Or that Chandra (Mohinder's father) didn't think so? And since the bulk of Chandra's research dealt with genetics and the evolution of special talents, does that mean that Mohinder, although brilliant, was not special in the way that Chandra wanted him to be?

By the way, Mohinder is hot. Just had to throw that in there, even though he DOES need a bit of a trim in the back (he's creeping up on mullet territory).

And this takes me back to some of the questions I posed in my last blog: Do special people always know they are special? Did Martin Luther King Jr know that he would sacrifice his life for a cause, but that he would be immortal because of it?
And Jesus, too, for that matter, although I am not delving into religious territory.

Do the people who are meant for something greater KNOW this, or do they simply find themselves among circumstances that contribute to their status as heroes? And since we create our realities, if we wanted to manifest conditions in which we could have the chance to shine, we certainly could, right? So it must first begin with a desire to DO something, and then be followed up with ACTION?

Have any of you ever had the sense that you were meant for something greater?

Mink and Worm

Such a dirty name for such a delectable drink. Coconut milk, fresh-squeezed lime, lime zest and a little seltzer. Mmmm.

I was watching the show Heroes last night (had missed it on Monday and taped it...yes, I am old school and don't have DVR). I must say that the show simultaneously fascinates me and scares the shit out of me. I'm not going to go into all the details of it if you aren't familiar with the premise, but it's this idea that there are some people with "mutant" DNA who have special abilities (think X Men, but they don't look any different from the rest of us). It seems that it is just recently that these special "heroes" have realized their extraordinary abilities and now have to decide what to do with them.

It made me start thinking about quantum mechanics and the idea that we shape our realities...that the universe is nothing more than energy vibrating at various frequencies, and we control the frequency of our vibration, thus drawing things (events, people) of similar vibration to us. If we are co-creators of our realities, then what's to stop us from believing that we are more powerful than humans are "supposed" to be? Is it just this belief in ourselves and our abilities that then allows these abilities to manifest? Anyone who has seen Criss Angel, the badass version of illusionist/magician David Blaine, knows that there are some things he can do that are "impossible." Only, if he can do these things, they are clearly NOT impossible. Is it just his strong concentration and belief in his ability to, say, walk on water while people swim around him and below him that allows him to accomplish this "magical illusion?" Or it is something far simpler, like clear, pencil thin stilts on the soles of his shoes that no one in the water or filming frombelow actually notices? He can't fly, mind you: He has to take the steps to walk, and he's clearly concentrating very hard. I wonder what would happen if something broke his concentration?

But I digress. At what point did Criss (or David, for that matter) start realizing they had extraordinary capabilities? And should they feel obligated to be some sort of "hero" and "save the cheerleader, save the world?" The credits are quick to point out that the stunts these men do are "illusions" and conducted by a professional and thus should not be attempted at home. But Criss pulls a Tesla (if you've seen the movie, "The Prestige" you know what I am talking about) and lights up an ordinary lightbulb (unscrewed from a hardware store lamp fixture) simply by holding it in his hand. Then, he levitates the light bulb and makes it spin around and has a bystander run his hand in the air all round the bulb. Remarkable. And again, I wonder if there are just some people who have extraordinary abilities but aren't yet aware?

Talk to most "intuitives," or psychics, and they will say that they have had their abilities ever since they can remember and learning to control them was the big lesson. Does that mean that the rest of us are simply out of luck? Or can we too reshape the fabric of our realities and manifest some "super powers?"